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Nature

Often I heard about the
Stars in the sky at full moon
Staring down at me and you and them
Almost as talking to us
Have I had a moment and gazed
I would have known the
Beauty of it, as the poets praised
With a melody of sound
Of the chirping birds around
The trees beneath my balcony
A splendid thousands prayers
A replica of heavenly beauty
Into the water beneath
A scene thousands of years survived
A thousands more to repeat
It's brighter now and was brighter then
When I had no choice to stare
Years and years I could wait to see
The beautiful sky in front of me
I could lay down here till I breathe my last
I admire when it's present
I want to do it when I'm past

Time

A quill it was,

some hundreds of years ago

That wrote the magic words

A pen its now, they say it has grown

Stronger that the swords

The levitation, it was dream

Not any one could try

Now it's, just relax, put your seat belts on

You are about to fly

The eyes they saw was all the land

Million of miles and miles

Touch a button, opens the window

Hundreds of feet's of glasses and tiles

You look in his eyes you look at her

Love is all you see

Love is replaced by some thing called money

Eyes are filled with hatred and greed

Land of the dead

Somewhere
Hundreds and thousands years ago
A forbidden land prevailed
Of what I heard in past
The bloodily vapours they inhaled
A ritual as I read they had
For years and years they performed
Immortal had the upper hand, all the mortal they raised
Mortals turned to immortal being, immortal they praised
A skull was their cup of choice
And the human blood their drink
Of I heard what people said
There existed a rule then
Corpses killed the living soul
In the land of dead

A Vengeance

The shade of the weathercock
Points to the graveyard,
An abandoned tombstone waits
For the day immorality
Returns to the world of the purest
As they name it
They will come back with
A Vengeance
A thousand years of digging
Not the earth but the time
The home a fathom below
Now the time have come
They say
The souls are here at last
No mercy they will show
A point to be made
War is the only way
Blood the only ink

A Vengeance

The shade of the weathercock
Points to the graveyard,
An abandoned tombstone waits
For the day immorality
Returns to the world of the purest
As they name it
They will come back with
A Vengeance
A thousand years of digging
Not the earth but the time
The home a fathom below
Now the time have come
They say
The souls are here at last
No mercy they will show
A point to be made
War is the only way
Blood the only ink

A Title

A Sunday morning in a lonely chair by the beach
I wish I had a pen to write or a stick to move the sand
I did a lot of thinking in a very short time
I had the feelings I had the words, they nearly did rhyme
I wrote something about the beautiful heaven
That stare me from so far away
I wrote about the feelings that I had
This morning when I left
I wrote about the beauty that the nature is
And the peace that place this is
I smiled to myself and read it once
But something I had missed
I had done it all wrote a poem
At last to describe the beauty the nature is
A title was left

Never Enough

A game
I thought I was playing
A simple word
I thought I was saying
My mind
I thought had the answer
The life
Is a mystrey of somekind
The reason
Arent the hardest thing to find
Feelings
That I cant feel
I search
The more and more
I find the more and more
Its not that easy not so tough
Its never less its never enough

Battery Man

He walked right into the coal mine
And he made sure you got the money
Obeyed your words
You did nothing
But you stayed back at your place
You pulled out the remote
Pressed the green button
A GPS showed the way
The battery man had smile on his face
He out played the danger
You let your wife get the better
Then there was confusion
A knock in the door
A rifle and a stranger
The next you heard
A silent siren of the ambulance
A guy blowing in your mouth
A coldness running through your head
You had soar hand with frozen blood
You woke up some days later
Grabbed a news paper
It was 4 days before
Then you knew you were robbed
You let your wife get the better

Hungry Men

A struggle he had to triumph
To fill up the stomach
There's no running
No more hiding
The place were whacked
No more dividing
The stone on his back
Weighed some hundred kg's
Definitely not enough money value
To feed his 15 babies
Those tears they dried
Even before they fell
Every drop of which
A story they can tell
Miles and miles of distance
And hundreds of miles of pain
Thousand of tons of earth
A penny is what he gains
The fight is here for money
The fight is here for the love
The fight has been there even longer
The fight for the smile and
The fight for the hunger

A Mistake

A mistake
Probably a misunderstanding
Or misinterpretation

A memory
Probably a poor mentality
Or misjudgement
A movement
Probably on a move
Or misguided
A motive
Probably a motivation
Or a mistake

As I leave

I can see the blood
Jumping down my skin
Trying to rush down
To the place my brain has
Asked them to flow down to
A thought runs in my brain
Was I the one?
The only one
Who lived in lie?
Of truth
I left no reason
For the light
I searched for the darkness
Within the darkness
And yet I was so far away
I wanted
Wanted so bad
The world was a force
And I was alone
They were in for a war
I had to give them something
A smile from a win
Or the blood of defeat
They were lotus
Growing in the mud
But I thought they were beautiful
Yet they were beautiful to those
Who thought I was one of the
Mud grown lotus
Though they hated me
They never knew the one
Who grew up on the same mud
They thought I was growing on
There were sarcastic at times
And Hippocrates the most
They were the place
Many used to call me
When I was some one
But I never knew who I was
Until now
Now I know who I am

The Day

A change was inevitable
Some kind of freedom of life
Holds the key
I knew the day was coming
Even the world is against me
I'm not sad
I knew the day was coming
The heaven has the answer
For all that I've been
For a year or two
If it was a mistake
Or a change that was
Inevitable
Tears are holding back
They are not in a rush to fall down
They knew the day was coming
I knew the day was coming
The day,
When I will be the one
And the only one
Who would be labelled to be
The wrong, the bad and
All the words that come with worst
I'm not sad to be
I knew the day was coming

Cruel World

I've been
Murdered
Inside of me
The world
Is my killer
I was hypnotized
They were cruel
They knew
Only to hate
I was told wrong
I did the wrong
Not to be left out
But to be strong
I was deceived
I was tricked
They were false
The words were false
The smile were fake
The love, a mistake
Cruelness runs
Inside their veins
Their mind
Holds the treachery
It holds the power
Power to kill
Other feelings
To hold back
The person they wanted to be
And make a person
Some kind of cheap person
For other to see
The world we live in
It’s indeed a cruel world

Dead Thoughts

As I walk upon the dead leaves
It reminds me of the loneliness
The absence of the air from within
My body, my mind and the soul
The time when those grasses were green
A silent word, without even hearing

Could amplify the voice, yet inaudible
Un-understandable, but felt in the air
But now, its nothing like before
Things have changed
A thought was just enough to
Hear that voice
But now, are those leaves that are dead
Or I have dead thoughts

The Silhouette of the trees

The Silhouette of the trees
Behind the bells, at midnight
Embraces the spirit of those
Fought for pride of scavengers
In the quest of quenching
The thirst of their blood
A cost we all must pay
Someday when the deceased
Will rise again and
Call a war at the end
Of the day
Whispering, oh they say, they've heard
The forest cries every night
Assembling the troops of the dead
Into the stones a righteous wrath engraved
The weapon they have, I heard
Can't kill none,
But the fears come not from
Dying,
Their weapon that is
They can’t be killed.

Sarcastic letter

I don’t know if it’s the terror that I see in your eyes or the one that I see in my mind before I even talk to you about that, but at certain point in life we have to face it and I certainly do know how am I going to handle the fact and how will you handle the fact. I don’t know if I should trust you with something now and should you trust me for something. If someone would have asked me year ago I would have asked you to trust me with a blind fold in your eyes, but now things have changed so have I, I guess so. With respect to that thing which will be away from us for a long time, I’m not an inch sure if I would be able to trust you in any regards. It doesn’t mean all those roots inside from where all these flowers have grown were from a false root; it was indeed a true one, but the drought and things that were there to crack those roots up, almost like the microorganism killed the roots and now the roots have decayed. I don’t want look at the flowers now, there’s no meaning of looking into it. If we let a drop of water some place, it will eventually dry up, I know that it wasn’t as small as a drop of water from my point of view but its was from your point, even if it was a cup from your view, it would have dried, wouldn’t it? And let me tell you that from what I saw and what I had, it was not a drop not a cup not a bucket but it was a vast ocean. I can assure you that it hasn’t dried at all till this point but I just want to be aware that, that’s something I can’t stop and you need to consider me for that. I tried a lot to pause a whole lot of things in life but, you just can’t go against the nature, as it seems to me. Everything in on a run and I guess that’s the way they are meant to be and so the way I was meant to be. But those flowers they bloomed for some reason and the only reason as you may know. That’s their story, and that’s not going to change whatever be the end for them. If by any means the reason is sad with the flower for dying, the reason must and should know that it died for the reason, and because of the reason. A sorry from a flower would be more than enough for the reason to forgive those flowers.

Thank you.

Me

I heard it many times before that time kills the pain but as far as I was concerned the pain was killing my time. The pain inside, was flowing through my veins like a poison slowly attacking the neurons on my brain. I do know what is wrong and what is right but something inside me wants me not to judge it but to find out the reason, why that one is right and the other is wrong. A partially tranquilized mind with some kind of psychedelic music playing inside a dark room, lighten by small candle I guess, I had disabled the ability of my brain to think. I guess we don’t think what our brain thinks; our brain thinks what we think. And yet we are unable to conquer the 2.5 kilo grams of matter that lies in the place which hurts like hell when you think of the girl you loved. The brain never reminds you of her, you make him remind you about her, how you loved her and she left you out cold.
Why can’t every thing be good? Why there has to be a dual nature of everything? What if the world was a better place all along? No crime? No hate? No bombs? What if no one had to die? What if there was no word as tears for the word happy? What difference would it make? What’s the meaning of dying? If there has to be birth again, A billion? That’s what we must have in the world? Is that how it works? Why can’t the 1st billion of people never die and make it billion overall why a million has to die and million rebirths to make it a billion? Now it seems like the only answer I’m searching for and I don’t know the reason why. A moment ago, I was thinking about her, she left, never ever wanted to be with me, she judged me, why? And that’s the question she can’t answer and I need an answer to is how? How did she judge? I am no where near what she thinks I am and what she doesn’t know about me is what I want her to know.

The light inside my room is fading away. Another question, why there has to be a question to everything? Just because we think or? There always is a question?
What exactly is darkness? Just the absence of light or the presence of dark? Or is it not the absence of light but absence of someone?
Does darkness really prevails? What would you call a room with a small candle light inside a dark room at night? The candle lighting the darkness or the darkness surrounding the small candle light? You think it’s the same either way? That’s our difference.

Hey you

Hey you! Someone called me. You can’t chase the sun, you know that right? I knew we could never chase the sun, but that was not the answer I had, we can’t chase the sun doesn’t mean we can’t try? You know it will be a false try, a mistake he said. I asked him tell me a time when a false try hasn’t been a mistake? If a mistake were a successful try then I guess the word we have “Mistake” would be a wrong one. There are as many as reason not to do than to do something. Not doing something might not be the mistake as you may think but sometimes in life you’ll have to say if I had, that is what I don’t want to do. I don’t want to look back at my life and say if I had. It doesn’t really matter what I have to go through now, since I already know that happiness and laughter aren’t the only part of life there are pain and sorrow, you’ll get that the either way, why run from something that comes back to you again. You’ll need to face whatever you do, so why don’t you just face those and find a way through.
Its madness, I think that’s what he told me. If you think I’m mad then why are you trying to convince me? Isn’t that the same as the false try you told me about? And that is what my friend I’m trying to do, the same thing you are trying to do with me. When a stone is dropped into a pond, we feel that the water is moving form the center to the bank but it’s just a wave, the water doesn’t move, and we can’t just change the way it is.

A bystander

A bystander in one of the busiest bus stop of the city, all of sudden pulled my shirt and asked me "What is Life". I tried to ignore him, pretended doing something on my Ipod and letting him know that I was busy with "something" and totally not interested to answer his question. But once again he did the same and asked the same question and nothing more. I had to answer him to get rid of him. I turned off my Ipod and thought for a while. It was already a hectic day and now some unknown guy was asking me the question, for which I didn’t have any answer at that instant. All the running from the morning, the burning tyres and tear gases had made my day something near to awful and now. I had to answer what is life. I thought of leaving but I was in no mood to walk not even up to the next stop. I will answer him and get rid of him. All I could think about was the black smoke blocking the time of Ghantaghar and the eagles flying above the Rani Pokhari. I looked around as if I was searching for the answer around the wall of Durbar High School but all I got was stare from one of the greatest poet of Nepal Bhanu Bhakta Achayra. I don’t know how long I took, but all I could answer was I don’t know. Then lady came and asked me, where are all the buses? Thank god I said to myself and told her that because of the clashes in front of the college they were stuck in traffic jam. Oh god!! Why on earth do they have to do this each and everyday? Again I was left with no answer. If she had stopped for a while and asked me where I study then she would have asked for a reason why do they have to do that everyday but seems like she was pissed as much as I was and had no intention of eating my head in middle of the day in a "Bus satiation" with no buses not even the likes of bicycles. Now again I was left with the man who I suppose was drunk as hell and kicked out of his office or even his house. Once again he asked me the same question pulling my shirt. I don’t think you heard me the second time but I don’t know the answer and I'm in no mood of answering that right now. Why don’t you go to some busy place where you can get yourself a crowd and have different opinion and chose the best one out, and if you have any other question as well. My wife, she just died of some disease that I couldn’t understand. He pulled something out of the bag and handed it to me. I thought to myself, not interested huh? Sometime in life you just have to be interested even if you don’t want to. It was some kind of paper, like a hospital receipt, which read "Bir Hospital" at the top. It was like some kind of bible in there, oh dear god she was sick. There were things that I didn’t get as well first a doctors hand writing and the there were diseases I never dreamed to hear of. Being a student of science I knew that she had some kind of lungs disease there were words like alveoli bronchioles which I had heard of. And word Emphysema was written more than twice and was circled more than one. I had never heard the word till that day but now I know that it means loss of elastic fibers around alveoli which causes their over inflation. And then I assume she died of lung cancer there were words something like sarcoma which meant cancer. I never thought how to react after I complete reading the paper he handed to me. Now I was there I was sure she died of cancer and what should I say now. I handed the paper back to her and 1st time today he said sorry for bothering me, which I didn’t, wanted to hear, I would have a few moments ago but now? I said that I was sorry as well for not responding to his question, who would have answered that anyway? Until and unless it's in front of camera or some national television program. There was a moment of pause and I wanted to get out of there, but now I couldn’t. I was really troubled at that time. The clashes seemed like they were never going to end and the "Bus" was never going to come and the guy beside me was never going to stop talking. It was three months ago that I first came to Kathmandu with my wife. She have had the pain for more than a year but, the place where I come from, I was told that it was nothing just the cold she was suffering from. The health post, which is almost as store room where compounder's as we call him there visited us as tourists. I had to do something about her, she used to cry every night with pain and I had promised to keep her healthy and happy forever and I had to keep the vows. I just didn’t know how. Then the only option I had was to bring her here. I arranged some money and came here but, the amount that I brought was a needle in a haystack in this place. I thought I'd be back before I knew and I wont need more money but. And now I know that even if I had it wouldn’t have matter. They say it can't be cured. "Cancer Vanda Rahechan babu teslai sabai lai lancha re nagarib na dhani". I could see the tears shinning, and ready to fall. Two years ago my mother died of diarrhea. I couldn’t do anything at time and again I couldn’t do anything. The tragedy of death isn’t the death itself but its watching someone die in front of you and you can't do anything. I don’t know there wasn’t much in my life before and now ill get on the bus and go home and there wont be much but I have to live with the fact there's no one with me and I've got nothing.
Theoretically I don’t see the reason to live and practically I just can't die. Last night I saw my wife burning in front of my eyes I remembered how we met, our marriage and everything we had dreamed of and before I had remembered everything the woman I loved and who loved me so much and was with me the day before was already turned into ashes and the priest was cleaning up the ashes. Now today the dream has shattered into billion pieces and I just can't find the proper way to make it one again. I don’t have a house to live in, I don’t have a family and above all I don't have money, I don’t know how am I going to pay the person I took the loan from. I even don’t know how I'm going to get on the bus. I had no idea of what to do next. I just had around 90 rupees and I offered to him but he refused to take it. I already have a lot of loan to pay I can’t take that anymore. I don’t know, I guess he didn’t want the money and he just wanted to speak his heart out but I might have mistaken him, and I suppose he felt ashamed and refused to take him, as he looked like he made the story for that. Now it got even more awkward. I'm once again sorry to have bothered you but I just wanted to talk with someone. I just said, I'm not bothered and I'm sorry as well for ignoring you before and for your loss. The man said nothing about that, he said look at that tire burning, and that is what reminded me of her. What is life then? Same thing happens when you burn a tire and a person, you just end of in ashes.
What exactly do we live for and for what reason do we die for? I asked you what life is; because I really want to know what life is, I wish I could ask this to the god himself but I guess that would take sometime and I wanted to know. What is he talking about? He was talking about something but my mind turned to something else for a moment, police were running towards me and agitators were throwing stones and whatever they found. I had to find a safe place.I walked pass the police and stayed behind them for a moment, they controlled the place of course for a while but before there were stones flying in the sky I was home already. I searched for that guy but he was gone. I don’t know where he went and how? But… I still don’t know what happened back there but, he asked me what life is just because he saw a tire burning which he compared with her wife burning? And what's wrong with me? I still can't answer that question. Is there really no answer or? It's just me who doesn’t have an answer. If I'll ever find that guy …yeah I'll ask him what life is!!! Now like he said I too want to know what life is.

17th July 2009

So much for the dream Ive been having lately. I wonder how am I able to dream, when I cant just do anything? Think and Dream arent those the same? but why cant I think and I dream all the time? fair enough for the time Im asleep but what about the time when Im not? It has been a day or two that I havent done my routine, I dont know if its my heart burning or the Global Warming but something is burning for sure, somewhere inside my heart. I cant i just can think, sleep or anything at all.The dark clouds above me never seem to leave, I was mistaken all time long I was comparing those to you, but do you know what is the difference between the dark clouds and you? Even though I loved you, you left me to make my life dark, but even when I hate this clouds so much its never leaving and yet making my life a dark place for me to silently crush away my heart.I dont really understand your reason anytime, even though I say I do.Atleast that brings smile on your face and you closer to me. I just cant lie to be with you and the truth Im telling is not helping me at all to be with you. I was as mad about you as A dog is about bone but with those recent facts Im sorry dear. I just cant, I cant even think to trust you. Do you even realize that youve changed so much? I hear things and I guess that are supposed to be normal but those things I hear arent. I guess Rose is what its thorns are, Moon is all about its eclipse is, Warm is never warm if there is nothing called cold. You are never Beautiful as you are If im not There To be the Ugliest part of your beauty. Let my tears shine you in my eyes, it would not matter much to me, till you are smiling. Everything I speak are lie for you even the word "Truth" coming out of my mouth is translated into "Lie" by a certain factor, as it seems to me. Im so dead right about it but I just can find the loop hole to erase that fact for ever. A stone might not be as worth as a diamond, I do understand that. But is it up to us to judge the facts? What if centuries ago, Our anchestor had made stone as worthy as a diamond and a diamond as unworthy we think stone is. All Im trying to say is, Nothing is as it seems it is, Life is just a game, which we cant sort of, it might end today tomorrow, its uncertain and nothing we own is ours. I know this will be a worthless crap for you, But every single thing youve said? Ive just replied, you like it or not!

The darkest hour of the world

The darkest hour of the world has begun
The time has come that the living shall mourn
Those intimidator humans shall learn about grave
They shall be shown soul less are brave

Hate, cruelty shall be spread all over the world
The graves of the dead shall be unfold
For years they have hated us, they have lied
Those narrow walls shall be broken, they shall be crucified

Please

Of your charm is how live with
Without you my dear I’m just a myth
Thy eyes reminds me of the moon in the sky at night
On dark cold day it renders me light
I’m blind without you, you’re my sight
You like my sun on clear blue skies
I see the world through your eyes
This heart stops breathing when you are not here
This eye starts crying, so hard to hold his tear
My mind stop screams your name with fear
When you not around my lips stop to talk
Without you in my sight my legs stop to walk
When I hold your picture my brain stops to think
These poor eyes love you so much they disregard to blink
If you’ll leave my love this boat will simply sink
This same boat that wished to hold you forever
The heart of boat now is full of fear
Please don’t leave me my dear
I can’t cry more I’m broke with tears
I’m so lost so full of fears
Please

My blameless heart

Long had it been since last you I had dreamed
Life’s even worse more than it had seemed
Can’t stop loving you even we’re so apart
You might be happy but I’m living with a shattered heart
It was hard Oh it’s getting even worse
Even all I do is cry, I have no remorse
Loved with all my essence in my soul I had
The world thinks I’m crazy. Oh he really is mad
But my dear my love for you shall never die
Can’t be even swept by flood made by tears when I cry
The world might end but I’ll still be loving you, oh yes I will
My love is like air but you couldn’t feel
Oh it was everywhere around you
And will be till I die from the day I found you
Though my precious love was never returned
My blameless heart was harmed and burned

Where is purity?

They say we find it everywhere
But years have gone I haven’t seen it yet
I should have seen it even if it’s rare
Thousand of sight in front, the thing I haven’t met

They say it’s on top of mountain when it comes to height
They say it’s as big as a biggest of city
The thing so called “Everywhere” but so hard to find
Oh my lord tell me where in earth is purity?

She broke god’s heart

From that sky above, she came
Beautiful lady with a beautiful name
Why would the God send such a girl to this earth?
Such a wrong place for an angel’s birth
I wondered for years oh why, why did he?
Send such a beautiful girl in front of me
If I was him I would never leave her sight
Even on coldest and darkest of night
How could he be away from her this long?
How could he never felt he was wrong?
How could the creator himself do this?
To leave so far away from what brings in him bliss
I wondered so long that how with a girl so fine he could be part
It’s now I found, same as mine she broke his heart

My dear love I’m missing you a lot

As of loving you in life I’ve lost hope
Love has made me crazy, I’ve become a misanthrope
Ecstasy in life so hard to find
Pen’s running on the paper, you’re on my mind
It’s been a year or so
No one I meet, there’s no where I go
My eyes are like cloud, they always speak with rain
My heart is like thunder, always speaking in pain
I spend my times in darkness, I’m afraid of light
My soul dies in day, reborn at night
I walk alone with you in my head
Only your thoughts even without my own shade
My own shadow left me never to come again
Tears are my water, my food is pain
That’s what I’m living with since you’re gone
Life’s full of darkness no sign of fun
Pain, sorrow tears that what I’ve got
My dear love I’m missing you a lot

Please forgive me my heart

Every time I look at the moon in the sky
All I can do is remember you and cry
That very moon has face of thee
Both of you just made for me to see
To hold you is like my wildest of dream
All I can do is hold your picture and scream
That very scream, oh just your name
Heart cries out loud you are the one to blame
Blame is to me oh so true
I fell for an angel, an angel like you
Please forgive me my heart
I’ll promise you, unlike her I won’t be apart
Though just like you, without her I can’t live
Even
Tears, pain and sorrow’s all I can give

If there’s any thing I can do for you is love you

If there’s single drop of tears left in me it’s for you
If there’s last breath left in me it’s for you
If there’s a single sight my eyes can see that’s you
If there’s only thing my mind thinks that’s you
If there’s only sound my ear hears, voice of yours
If there’s only thing my lips kiss that’s you
If there’s only thing my hearts miss that’s you
If there’s only thing I can feel that’s you
If there’s only thing I can love, oh it’s just you
But
If there’s single drop of tears left in you that’s not for me
If there’s last breath left in you that’s not for me
If there’s a single sight your eyes can see that’s not me
If there’s only thing your mind thinks that’s not me
If there’s only sound your ear hears, not my voice
If there’s only thing your lips kiss that’s not me
If there’s only thing your hearts miss that’s not me
If there’s only thing you can feel that’s not me
If there’s only thing you can love, oh it’s surely not me
Whatever you do I’ve loved you, still loving you and will
Till my last breathe

Never ending love of mine

I don’t why but I’m feeling so good now
I’m asking myself the question, how?
Have I forgotten her I don’t think so
Since she’s been far from me now I think I love her more
But what am I so happy about?
The joy inside make me feel like crying out loud
The ecstasy I fell inside I can’t hold
Can’t wait to show that I’m happy to this world so cold
Hey everyone I’m happy and I’m not mad
Though I lost the only girl I had
I loved her so much that I don’t need her to be with me
All I want for her to do is always be happy for me to see
That’s what makes me happy that’s what makes my day
Her beauty makes my life, even if with different guys she passes through my way
I’ll wait for her till my last breath, I’ll wait I’ll cry
Whatever happens to this world till then, my love for her will never die

Ask me not my dear

Ask me dear where I wouldn’t follow
Ask me dear what I wouldn’t shallow
Ask me dear if I would die
Ask me dear if all my life I will cry
Ask me dear if there’s anything I can’t do for you
Ask me dear if I can get you the moon, get you the sun
Ask me dear if I can get you life full of fun
Ask me dear if without you I could breathe
Ask me dear if without you I could sleep
Ask me dear if there’s anything I can’t do for you
Ask me anything my dear my love, anything I can give
Ask me not my dear; please ask me not to leave

Why?

Why is it so dark these days
Is it because there is no sun in the sky
or is it because my eyes always cry
Why is it so cold these days
is is because you are too bold
or is it because you are not there for me to hold
Why does it rains these days
is it because you never knew what is pain
or is it because my love for you was thrown in vain
why is there no taste on food these days
is it because is cooked in haste
or is it because my love for you was just a waste

Please not make me cry anymore i'm running out of tear

The day is so gloomy, for me to breathe is geting hard
Tears break the scilence of a borken heart
No signs of your return form the day we were apart
How will an angel know the pain of a broken heart
Guess how i'm living without the air i breathe
Guess how i'm living without my heat
Guess how i'm living without you for me to see
Please, please, please my love come back to me
I dont want to die now for you i shall miss
come back ot my life it will bring some bliss
i promise i would never leave your sight
id be your shadow each and every day, even every night
See the pain in my heart on my eyes
without a single sight it only cries
please not hurt me more my dear
please not make me cry anymore i'm running out of tear

Hell Awaits

Do not fear death my friend
though darkness prevails in the place you are to be send
the joyful life of yours was just a dream
the pain in life is nothing youve got more to scream
Fear is not the answer you've got to be brave
form the day you are born to the night in the grave
in this land for your sin you shall pay
ive seen millions of nights no sign of day
youve got to come here whatever be in your fates
for you my friend my dark hell awaits

Mirror

The time is now , but the mirror shows the past
Oh! it takes me into the world so vast
The world in a wonderland oh so cruel it is
Tears run down my eyes as cold as the breeze

Oh life's jsut mirror, only thing that matter
In a blink of an eye into thousand piece it can shatter
But the shattered glass there can be merge
This life of ours in one single drop it can submerge

I'll promise my love for you will never die

Oranate she was with beauty when i first met
Was she just another angel to detect my fate?
She was so kind, a devil she would not hate
To send her to this earth god would surely regret

My life is etiolated ive lost my sun
Tears and sorrow i've got, no signs of fun
Your attitude has given me despair
Id have loved you even if i got was stare
My love is as high as the sky
I'll promise my love for you will never die

Horizon is the hope

We together again is just like a horizon is said to be
they seem to have but earth and sky never meet
you've gone so far i've heard, or is it just a hearsay
it might be true though, so gloomy is the day
My life is liek an ember, ready to die
my eyes are like cloud on rainy day ready to cry
my life is desolated by your love, my dear
wihout hope in life im living with fear
id be happy if you were with me even if binded by the rope
but not my dear, for this life horizon is the hope

I hate my self for loving you

I loved you so much, oh yes i did
but you told im not the one you need
the greed of yours made us apart
how would you know the pain of broken heart
ask me what is pain, sorrow and tears
ask me how does it feel to be in dark room full of fears
do you even know that theres a broken heart because of you?
such a loving heart in life youll find few
i was such a joyful guy untill i met you
with your cruel answer to my love my heart blew
form a cheerfull guy im lunatic because of you
now i so hurt that I hate my self for loving you

Am i in love again with beautiful girl i just met

Oh this girl i just met, so beautiful she is
The way she walks beside me like softly blowing breeze
The way she smile stops the whole world
Warmness she brings in me on day so cold

This girl she really is an angel down from heaven
I always dream of us together 24 seven
She is the one who brings joy in my life, she really does
Into her heart so kind my life has just submerged
She gives me laugh, helps me forget the pain
But im really afraid, if im in love again??

My valentine

Oh i spent my whole day with my valentine
Yes the day was wonderful, oh so fine
To sit below the clear and blue sky
Yes with my valentine my "shadow" by my side

The thing called love

Your eye sees and your lips touch
Fun for hand, but hearts the one who gets hurt
Die one would, to fall for it just
Rebuff in life one must
The pain in it nobody knows
Once they know, not a soul shows
Fool is the one who hide
Until his emotion grows into a tide
Thus for the answer I’ve searched far and wide
Life is not what it is, it’s what you decide
To gain something one really must lose
Right person in life one really must choose
In this battle field everyone looses
Even the one, right person he chooses
Happy at dawn, at dusk full of bruises
No good feeling, tears always oozes
This is a warm thing, in world so cold
It’s everywhere they say, but so hard to hold
They say it’s found in everyone’s vault
I don’t really know about it, but “LOVE” it is called

When love and hate collide

Without an answer of my own question, I’m cold
There’s a beautiful girl at my sight she’s so hard to hold
Don’t really know why it is, she’s trying to act so bold
She is one beautiful girl, who heart so hard to mold
I don’t know why but I fell for her bad
Now as know her from Inside I’m feeling sad
She was not the only girl in the list I had
The way she is, is making me mad
Yes, about her I always think
Poor old me, from her I don’t get a blink
I’m totally into her, but it’s so hard to decide
I guess that’s what happens when love and hate collide

Let me be

Let me be the air that you breathe
Let me be warmness for you on cold day let me be your heat
Let me be the lips with which you talk
Let me be the legs with which you walk
Let me be the rightness when you are wrong
Let me be with you all day long
Let me be in your dream when you are apart
Let me be always in your heart
Let me be the flower that you kiss
Let me be one person you always miss
Let me there in your laugh and your cries
Let me be the sight when you open and close your eyes
Let me be the reason for fun
Let me be your moon let me be your sun
Let me be thy eyes through you see the world
Let me be the person you always hold
Let me be in your heart let me be your blood
Let me be your road let me be the mud
Let me be the reason for your smile
Let me be in your thoughts even if its 1000000000000000 miles
Let me be the spoon with which you eat
Let me be the nail attached with your meat

Fill the empty spaces in hell with human

Our land has been barren, cleaned and swiped
The voices cry out loud, millions of years they have wiped
The darkest place on earth, thousands of years we have roam
This land six feet under our home sweet home


For those shall be brought who swept this land
They must be crucified, suppressed more than they can withstand
Scream they must, in pain they must run
The empty spaces in hell must be filed with human

Awakened corpses

Oh they say the corpses have awakened
From the remains of the very ashes burned
Its time they say for humanity’s end
Warriors of darkness, they have sent

Burned and bruised for thousands of years
Hated by the living, loved with fears
Long they were here, but only memory remain
Leaving behind the world full of tears sorrow and pain

For those lie above

No mercy shall be shown to those lie above
Kill them, burn them, into the hell the must be shove
To those who are happy must be in pain
In cruel world above, the corpses must reign

From the land of love to lad of hate
They shall rust in here, be our puppet
Their blood shall be spilled, burned or killed
The war has begun the bell must be pealed

The end of humanity

Long has it been since they have had rule
Hated they have us, they’ve been so cruel
No single day that they have cared
There they have stand and just stared

Us grave has been their sandpits
Sands make their house made up of our meats
There shall we pass from land of sanity
Fight we must for end of humanity

The corpse’s song

The corpses below me, they cry
Come to us, go ahead and die
The people around you, they won’t care
They’ll just stand there and just stare
Though the world below is dark
Neither they hate you nor do they bark
Though none are happy and so glad
We never cry we’re never sad
Erase the excitement remove the fuss
Life is just waste, come to us

Dying mind

All alone on my death bed I lie
I’m the one dying, why do they cry
When I was living, nobody took care of me?
As now I’m dying, they all have fear of me
But it really does hurt, it’ so hard to die
Don’t even have strength to cry
People around me, they are feeling so high
The condolences and sympathy just a lie

The Stars and The Sea

The tidal waves come to me and they go
All along the day and night with the sea they flow
Sun and moon they come and go
The sea is the world, and I’m alone in the shore
The sand on the shore oh it’s so cold
The pain inside my heart so hard to hold
Even the tears from my eyes are dried by the breeze
Life is just like a desert without any trees
The stars in the sky always looking down at me
Am I the only sad person in the world for them to see?
Or have they seen my pain, and just giving me a company?
As I don’t have a soul in front of me
Who says that I’m all alone without a help?
Who says that I can’t live all by myself?
What if I don’t have any soul in front of me?
There are some who’ll always be with me, The Stars and The Sea

She is an angel

She was one of a kind
With her own astonishing mind
Marvelous the way she walked
So the way she talked
Her never ending smile
Were like the ever flowing Nile
Without a doubt she has got the flair
And also a beautiful hair
She was the one, made to see
, but not for me

My story

Thy presence made my day then
Worsen; the day has now my old friend
Those were the days when life had fun
Life’s dark now no sign of moon, neither of sun
Life was good with you in my sight
Hard it is now to live lonely days and night
Dreams of mine right in front of me they blew
I still wish, with me tonight I had you
The world seems to move fast like a wind
I’m stuck here alone, my life is ruined
Thee must be happy, full of joy
I’m so hurt; I’m just a lonely boy
If I had thee here, how would I be?
Good as I was or mad for the world to see
The world laughs at me now as you are gone
I’m like a lunatic; I’m just for their fun
I’m missing you so, your smile and your beautiful eye
All I can do is remember you and cry
You are so far and a world apart
I’m so lost, alone, with a broken heart
More than then I need you now
I madly need you in my life, but how
Sorry that I couldn’t be like you wanted me to be
I hope you’ll forget those things and always remember me
The world seems same, but why I feel it’s different
Is it because, I’ve been deprived of your beautiful scent
You may think it was my mistake
Mistake could be mine, but my love wasn’t fake
Now since you are gone you may be satisfied that you don’t have to see me
But my eyes are as eager the 1st time when they saw thee
You just left without a single word not a single call on phone
Are you really happy that I’m all alone?
You never talked to me when you were in front of me to see
But now you talk to me as you are all the way across the country
How have you been all those days?
I was hurt, without you passing through my ways
Longtime passed since last we talked
Miss the moment together when we walked
Not a single day, I haven’t missed thee
Although you ain’t in front of me to see
Nothing but sad memories left with me
Not a single photo that I can hold when I die
Only time of sorrow with me to remember and to cry
Life has become as dark as moonless night
I’m all alone, world is in front of me to fight
I’m living, all by help of your tears
Hurt so bad, full of fears
I’ve become someone who I never thought I would
I’m going down but there’s nothing I can do to stop if I could
I’d still be happy if I had you for me to hold
That’s probably not possible as you are so bold
The nights are cold and days are so long
My life’s passing just writing a song
Song for the girl I’ve loved so true
From bottom of my heart and through
That’s only way to express my feelings for you
Pain, sorrow, in my life aren’t few
I don’t think I’ll see you ever again
No joy for me then, only heart full of pain.
Though our time together was so short
A bag full of pain in heart, that’s what I’ve got
Why was it that we ever met?
If we hadn’t I didn’t have to regret
You never told me you were leaving
I’d have given you a gift in the end
But why didn’t you told me, my dear friend
Now as of you, I’m changed, my eyes never stops as well as my hand
Although it’s like adding water in the sand
I know that it’s vain, although it’s hard to stand
I know that it but it’s this heart that doesn’t understand
My eyes are hurt, my heart hurt, and now my hands
As I write this to you my love my girl
You’re the only thing except from football that, I’ve love at all
But now I’ve found out that it’s all for nothing
A song in my hand that’s too long to sing
The world thinks I’m mad
They are true as I lost the only girl that I ever had
My life waits for joys and fun
I’m waiting for you to return
It doesn’t matter, if whole my life I cry
I’ll live with your memories and one day die
I regret that I beg you like a beggar
Promised to be with you forever
Although I know you are gone never to come
I write poems remembering you as I don’t drink rum
If I was a drinker, I’d have loved it now as I’m so down
But I’m a lovelorn, for world that’s as a clown
If seeing you’d cause me headaches, for what you’ve done to me
I’d have died, because I see you when I close my eyes and nothing to see
That’s when you only thing in front of me
Either closed or open, you are the only thing I see
The pain inside my heart grows every time I think of thee
I’m so in love with you, but you don’t care about me
Why you did never said a word about my feelings?
Long has it passed, still you voice in my ear always rings
I’m trying so hard to live a happy life now
I really want to but I don’t know how
You’ve left me so damn alone and full of fears
Every time I think of you I’m full of Tears
I’ve forgotten the whole world even my own name
But not you my dear, I am the one to blame
To love you so much from bottom of my heart
Now I’m left with nothing as we are apart
The day before I saw you I was having fun
I was like one and only ever happy sun
Those were the days in life, I want to now
I don’t want to fall in love that’s my vow
The first time I saw you, I ran out of my world
Your beautiful voice entered my ears like one sharp sword
I glanced into your eyes and drowned inside
I searched for the words to describe you far and wide
The setting was fresh and everything was new
That very first moment I saw you, I wanted you
It took me long to express my feelings made
Just before the day I found out you were not interested
Still the voices comes to my ear, I wish it was a lie
If it was as I thought I’d never had to cry
Every morning I wanted to see you first
Just guess dear how I have lived after you I’ve lost
Those days I wished always to be in college
But now I’m always filling up the blank pages
Where are you when I’m so hurt and full of pain?
The love and kindness of mine to you, are they gone in vain?
What have I got as I loved you? What’s my reward?
Pain, sorrow, tears and a broken heart?
Thee must be happy, full of joy
I’m so hurt; I’m just a lonely boy
Years and few have gone no sign of you far or near
I feel so damn hurt I wish you were here
Still the echoes of your voice surround me always
Darker the nights are and darker the days
It hurts so much when its night
Without you in my sight
It feels like my head’s going to burst
Heart feels so cold like left out in the frost
In this cold life of mine I’ve found a new friend
To pour down the feelings of my heart, yes it’s my pen
The friends once they were have left me alone
No sign of the comeback, not a single phone

Pain a dear friend

I heard that one who never leaves you is your friend
If it’s so my best friend shall be pain
Form the day I was born to what I’ve become
Pain is with be but other things have come and gone
Everybody left me never did pain
I’ve always been alone; pain has always been my friend
When I had fun, I had lots of people in my sight
But when I was in need of someone, everybody left in just a night
Even when everyone left me, as I didn’t had anything
Pain was always with me every time, pain is what makes me write and sing
They loved the one with everything, fun, joy, money, that’s the trend
If you don’t have that, you have pain a dear friend

Life

The burden life is hard to live
Happiness and love to others hard to give
It’s hard to keep everybody satisfied
When everybody around me are pacified
To live, few times I’ve cried
To be with other most of the times I’ve lied
Ask me what hate, pain, sorrow are
Happiness and joy in my life they are way too far
But still ive something inside of me
And a big world in front of me to see
In this sinister life i dont need any help
I can live a good life all by my self

A warm goodbye

Ive to agree im missing you coz times with you were loads of fun
but it doesnt mean that im not sad for what you've done
before the end there's nothing i can give
soory but its time for me to leave
but remeber everything i said was not all the fake
i hope you'll forgive me for my entire mistake
form good to all those bad days
i hope youll remember me always
i may be far from home but we can talk on phone
ill assure you that youll never walk alone
its time to go and time of the cold cry
all i can say is a warm goodbye
ive seen all the things i had to see
if im left out with some thing i have next life with me to see

The day when in first saw you

Life has changed since the first day I saw you in front of me
You’re truly an angel of god who are made to see
I was way to hurt that I was about to die
I don’t know why but in this awful life of mine
I’m feeling highBefore the day I saw you
I was unknown to the word laugh
All I ever did was cry
I wanted to be free like one of those birds who fly high in the sky
If everything I wished came true I’d be pretty sad
Because in the wish list of mine, you’re not the one I had
I truly believe now, that life’s just as it comes along and we have to take
Either you make it real or make it fake
Sometimes we have to unite and some time’s we have to break

What’s love

Someone used to say it’s great to fall in love
But there’s nothing that I’ve got
Not a single gain
A heart full of tears and mind full of pain
My precious love was thrown in vain
I don’t want to fall in love again
I guess that’s what I had in my fate
Life’s like that I don’t want to regret
But what up with this love thing that everyone needs it
A happy and good togetherness and a tears full of split
What really is it to be in love to share things?
Is love really a bond made by a bunch of rings?
I did love someone but never got my love back
Now I’m living a barren life people think I’m crack
Is that what love means?
To be hurt, pull of pain? Be in dark room listen to Pink Floyd again and again?
I fell in love with a girl I got nothing but tears
Now I’m all alone living with fears
She might be happy; she’s taken my laughter, from me they are apart
I’m so damn hurt it’s hard to live with a broken heart

Thank you for loving me

Life has really changed now as I have you with me
But darling I just want you to be free
I don’t want you to get hurt OH my Dear friend
Happy we may be now but there will be pain, sorrow
And tears in the end
I appreciate of what you feel for me I’m really glad
For I want you to forget about me I don’t want you to be sad
It would be a sad scene you being sad and for me to see
How come I’ll be happy then seeing the one who is always there to love me?
There’s nothing else than love you can give me
Another thing you can do to make me happy is leave me
You have a whole world in front of you for you to see
All I can say is thank you for loving me

Out of my life

Sun ain’t giving me light, neither is moon
Life is full of sorrow and pain, form god to me it’s the only boon
Every time I feel like I got something now, it’s time for some fun
The lights turn out black on me, as setting of sun
But the moon there is to give light in absence of sun
Nothing for me but of sorrow and pain to replace my times of fun
What would it be like to get the things we’ve always wanted to see?
It would be fantasy for those who get it but always a dream for me
I wish god could stop the time at this moment and always to be so that I can see
you always in front of me
Life may be long but time between us that’s so few
I try hard but I can’t be far away from you
Each and every night I’m like a mad man who always screams
I would be just fine if I could get you out of my dreams
It didn’t took that long for us to be so close to each other like this
Someday I’ll leave this moment of joys and fun
You may take it easily but for me it will be tough
I swear darling it will be only you I’ll think of
I could like spent the whole life with you
Only If I could know are you joking with me or your true
Every moment I’m with you feels like I’m in heaven
Believe me darling if I’d lie why would I think of you 24 7
Every time I talk with you, I try to make you far
Form me but you always get more near
I’m not that afraid of dying, loosing you is the only thing I fear
Think I could have been as much as happy as when I was with you if you were
here
Although I don’t know if you are with some one out there
Like I already told you, what would it be if we get all those things we desire?
Life wouldn’t be like mines, if would be like of those one who are higher
Was it a mistake or just another good thing in our fate?
How could he have let us met, how?
If he’d let us separated as we are now
But I’m way to glad to have you in my life
As I had you then
Bu this separation between us in my sad life is nothing but another fire and a big
flame
But I’m the culprit I’m the one to blame

Mr . . . . Lost in loneliness

I look like I’m happy, but I’m full of fear
I’m trying to figure out, if I belong here
Life is really not as it had seemed
I’m not on the way I had always dreamed
Why I am I here, what am I trying to do?
It’s like walking in the bushes without my shoe
What I am doing is truly meaning less
Can’t even look into mirror coz I hate my face
Do I have to be here or I’m in misplace
I had chance to make life good form disgrace
I know I’ve blown of my big chance to do so
Now I’m sitting on this dark cold floor

Lost for words

I don’t know what shall I do neither what shall I say
How to react when you’ll be passing through my way
On cold stormy day, on the dark cloudy sky
Like missing birds
I’m wondering here and there and I’m lost for words
Was it my mistake or was it you
You’ve lost me now but remember one like me is so few
You may get one who’s better than me in everything and to see
He may be the next best thing not quite good as me
Although our time together was too short
You may get someone who can stay with you so long
But I’ll swear darling no one you’ll find who can write such a good song.
Songs for you songs for everything you do
Everything you say and about every moment you’re in my way
No one you’ll get who can give you a song that’s 5-6 pages long
Was it my mistake that I wrote songs for you?
Was I right or was I wrong?
It’s just been a couple of days we haven’t had talk
Neither have we shared laugh neither a single walk
I’m already missing your smile, laugh I shall say
Those big eyes of yours while you’re passing through my way
I’m missing all those talks those good times are gone
All those times we had fun
Some of times that made us cry some moment of low and some moment of high
Now I’m all alone in this dark room I feel like crying
Another single moment without makes me feel like I’m dying

Life without you

Thy words are like one sharp knife they make me cry
Are you really like that or in front of your friend you feel shy
I really don’t want to be far from you
But it’s hard for me to judge you now
After the words that has come form you mouth
I’m afraid that I don’t have space in your heart
I don’t want to lose you don’t want to be apart
How shall I tell that I love you so much, how?
I’m afraid of losing you so ill rather
Be happy as I’m now
And never tell
I’m just happy that I met you weather ill pass this test or fail
I don’t know why but I fell in love with you at first sight
Haven’t had good sleeps since that night
Life has just dragged me to whatever it wants from me
Its has made me blind of everything and left you for me to see
I want you in my life so bad
If it was for me to decide what I want in my life
You were the only thing I ever had
But I can’t do that so I’m like this I’m so sad

All I need is you

I’m so lonely, though I’m in front of a big crowd
I’m hurt so much inside but can’t cry out loud
I’m so desperate and so full of fear
Feels like crying out loud but I don’t want you to hear
I’m full of my sight but I can’t see
Is the god trying got play game with me?
I thought he wanted me to be as good as I can be
If it’s so why would he play like this with me?
I would love to show you what I feel for you
If I could cut my heart to show you through
I don’t know what you think of me
But I swear I’ll always be true
And I’ll always be right here waiting for you
I wish the days were long and night to be short
So that you could be with me all day long, because that’s what I sort
To see you all day long, that’s what makes my day
Even though charms and luck pass through my ways
All those charms and luck I do not need
If and only if I have you right here with me

Appreciating thy beauty

Thy eyes are one of kind
As shiny as diamonds that are hard to find
Thy smile reminds me of the beauties of fresh red rose
Thorough your long beautiful hair my sight flows

Oh dear God, what have you done
Her beauty might be affected remove the sun
I don’t need sun as I have in my sight a beautiful moon
To just have seen her, is that my boon
Why does your beautiful lips don’t move for me
Are you only made for me to see?
Just to see you the way you walk makes my day
I don’t need any luck if you’ll pass through my way
I’m just dreaming you and me togetherIf that would be true,
I’ll be with you foreverThe nights are dark and days are cold
Are you so damn precious for me to hold?
I don’t know why you don’t talk to me
Oh dear God, what have you doneHer beauty might be affected remove the sunI don’t need sun as I have in my sight a beautiful moonTo just have seen her, is that my boon Why does your beautiful lips don’t move for meAre you only made for me to see?Just to see you the way you walk makes my dayI don’t need any luck if you’ll pass through my way I’m just dreaming you and me togetherIf that would be true, I’ll be with you foreverThe nights are dark and days are coldAre you so damn precious for me to hold? I don’t know why you don’t talk to meI won’t charge you anything, talking to me is for freeI won’t charge you anything, talking to me is for free

Fear of the stare

Thy eyes are as beautiful as a nice and fresh red rose
Every time you are in front of my feeling for you grows
You’re to beautiful, ones that are made to see
Am I that bad that you stare that hard at me?
When I see you in front of me
My mind stops so does my vein
The way you stare at me gives me laugh as well as pain
Those time when you are in front of my eyes
Wish I could fly like all those flies
To be with you like all those who surround you
But remember that ill always be true
I don’t have to be with your for that I don’t care
All I want to say is please don’t stare
I don’t want you to be in love with me
I love you so much that I can set you free
I love when you’re happy I love your beautiful smile
I can’t stay away from you a while, how to think about an exile
I want to talk to you, but I’m full of fear
Life’s just stared being happy I don’t want to end it here
It had been long since I last had fun
Life was as dark as moon less night finally I’ve found sun
Now I’m happy again and hope ill always be
As I have you in front of me for me to always see….

Thank you for all my tears

I’m falling apart in silence of the dark
Now life’s been like hell it was full of spark
1 and half yrs have passed
But will my love for you ever last?
Did the thing I had never thought
Pain sorrow and tears that’s all I got
Although I had all the world in front of me
I never thought it as you and me I did it as we
But what had I got for you, you could never see
Please …..Now form my heart make your self free.
I’ve learnt the meaning of love
I’ve learnt love is not for me it’s too fragile
I truly madly deeply love you
I hope you’ll for get me and always smile
I’ve lost my hopes with life and I’m full of fears
Love you darling so much that I have to thank you for all my tears

Broken apart

I’ve always been alone in my life and always sad
Only thing for the last two years to be happy about for me was in front of me you I
had
I swear dear ill never love anyone like I’ve loved you all my life
No one I really mean it not even my wife
I still remember the first day I saw you
Those small eyes and the way you smile
The way you walked into the room
It was like one scene to see
Its was like one of the god’s angle in front of me
That day my whole life stopped
I used think what am I living for me to be
Nothing for me to be but just you for me to see
Those days it felt like I couldn’t breathe a sec without you in front of me
It felt like I was incomplete without you for me to see
Now it’s been like 5 months I haven’t seen you
Guess how I have lived my life now without you
It’s like living in the dark as I’ve lost my light
If you have a heart just think how I have lived my life without you in my sight
You may have already forgotten me already this day
But ill never forget even the first day you passed through my way
How many times I have to tell you that I LOVE YOU
Everything I said to you was true
I wasted my two years to show you what I feel for you
I tried a lot
Pain sorrow hate and a bag full of tears that’s all I got
If that’s what make you happy you can even hurt me more than as bad as I’m hurt
know they feel so few
I may seem like I’m living but I’m already dead as I’ve wasted my life on you
You are my life and everything I been send to live for
I’ve lived for you and I’m living for you and ill die for you
I’ve cried because of you I’m crying because of you and always be crying all
because of you
I don’t know why you took me the wrong way
Even without a single word to say
Even now
I miss you like a flower misses the sun at night
Like the flies miss the moon in sun’s bright
I wish I was with you there, this beautiful night
To be in front of you to hold you tight
I must be like this all for your sake
Although you were wrong, it was my mistake
To fall in love with a flower so good
I never know you had lots of bees on your top hood
I’m feeling sad and so low that I can die
You must be happy and feeling so high
I was the one who made you laugh and made you feel high
But now you’re laughing at me after you made me cry

Blind Hearted God

It felt like I’d won it all I was in the top of the world
But I never imagined you were stone hearted and so bold
I thought I was in search of stone and had found gold
Yes, gold, gold it was but not for me to hold
Just imagine how I lived through all my days
You walking with some other guys through my ways
I would have been as happy as when I first met you
If you had just told me “I HATE YOU”
Hey god how you could let her do what she has done to me
Yes you have eyes but you are too blind to see
How come you never feel me? How?
If you can go ahead and kill me like you’ve done now
I’m already dead but like you did
Holy god says “you are not the one I need”
If ill write her name with all my blood
Will I be the one you need oh dear God