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Matter that is what I am
Aggregated amount
Reacting to the energy variation

Compound
Life that is mine
Composed of
Waves and energies

Negative and positive
Cation and anions
Absorb assist metabolize
Synthesize pulverize
Transferring
To micron and micron of
Life that are atoms

Lengthy
Time duration of mine
Relatively hovering around relativity
And time and motion


Driving round and round
In the thin air of matter as I am
Until again the matter that I’ll become

Voices

The road spreads wider than ever
and the voices seem to fade
the victims rise up to their throne
kneeling down before the blade

step by step they keep marching on
for a voice commands so loud
a stream of tears running down
from the heart filled with cloud

the end has never been close
and the sun's about to set for good
the heart is not a faint one
even for the final time they stood

I don't care

I was drowning
in the cold water
of hate
and despair when you
pulled me,
offered me your hand
and warmth that
pushed into my heart
and,
forged a smile in my heart
with the warmness and
the joy of being found
the joy of you being around

Im not afraid of falling anymore
not even in all of the ocean
at once,
I'm not afraid of being sad anymore
for i have you in my mind, a mental art
i have a picture of you deep within my heart
im not afraid anymore
no more i have fright
for you are there to shed all the light

I dont care if the world ends tomorrow
I wish I have the rest of the time for me to borrow
I can fly even without wings when your in my mind
to a place, where its just you and I and
your hands i can find,
and all the world together we can see
the world is a happy place to see
along as you you're standing by me

Sun in the sky

floating down

in the dreams

of a land

where those eyes

will be staring not through

a medium

and where

I would hold you hand

and the darkest of day would

turn bright as sunny day sky

and there would be a happy

ending

one with the smile

like the sun,

smiling up above us

bringing warmness

in our hearts

and lights in our dreams

Staring

I lay awake

even though it already late

the sun is knocking bright

at the west side of the gate

the stars are dancing up high in the sky

same way, as before, as long as I have seen

and I'm writing down the things on my head

with your picture in front of me

staring at the electronic screen

Hike to Nagarkot

I have to go through the old memos and calendar to check the last that I went out, in a way that's fun, biking or hiking. But recently with, lots of free time in the bags and studies put aside for a while. I was given an opportunity to work for the right cause and learn and to improve and understand, the way of working on different approach of Environmental Cause, as been recruited as the Enviro Crops for the year 2011, we were invited for a orientation program, in a form of hiking, starting form Sankhu to Nagarkot. The most interesting thing about it was, no one really knew anyone, not even the names or the faces, apart from the interview/workshop day, no one had never met each other, and had no idea who were among the six people to be selected. Everyone reached the destination, Old Bus park at 7:30 , this where everyone knew who were selected, still no names. As soon as everyone has arrived we took the local bus to Sankhu, an hour or less of bus ride. The morning had already shown the signs of what the day would be, so had the weather, which didn't really helped us all but at the end of the day it didn't really matter much to us.

The hike started from the bus stop at Sankhu, with the temperature cold, and faint rain, we started our journey towards Nagarkot, after having a cup of tea and few things to eat. The first few kilometers were mostly a double lane road, we walked along the slippery road. Finally, we picked a detour, as per the suggestion of locals, who by the way were extremely helpful. Upon reaching some sort of suspension bridge, we were all gathered and described about what the hiking was all about and how it was going to work. We were told that, we had to play different role and observe different environmental and social factors along the hike trail and express one's feeling about it at the end of the day. 3 different groups with every single group being assigned different roles, A tourist, A politician and Students researching in Environmental issues. After the short briefing, we started walking up the steep hill, along with our group members, discussing about what we were to observe and present at the end of the day. It was about 3 hours long walk up the hill, a steep one at some places but, it felt like it just took few minutes to reach out destination. Even though few hours before, no one knew anyone, even before the end of the day everyone were connected with each other and knew a little more than before.

Sharing stories about the past hiking experiences, educational background, hobbies, likes and dislikes about particular genre of music and almost every field possible. Finally, we reached the destination, after interesting walk for some 2-3 hours or more, tiring for some. Almost everyone was hungry by then, so we decided to gather for potluck. Everyone had brought different home made foods, snacks, and even fruits, we picked a rain tormented field, still wet, and sat in a circle enjoying the foods and sharing different stories and views, and then sharing one's experience and the role playing that we had to do. The politicians started up the conversation with what they have seen and what improvement they need to focus on more to change the living standard, without disturbing the natural habitat and a perfect one day hiking route. The students added up their views about how the vegetation and animal habitat of that place was undisturbed till now, and explained about different species of plants and animals they observed during the hike, finally the tourist shared their first time experience of that particular hiking route and the greenery, natural resources, scenic importance of that area. Everyone generated great ideas of what the place holds for development of Tourism, balance in Ecosystem, environmental issues and overall a very productive ideas. The discussion ended along with the hot tea in the cup along with our role playing conversations. Then, we gathered our self, took some group photos and started walking again. And, as always, like the saying, save the best for the last, the best part was to return home in a gigantic sand layered Truck rocking back and forth down the hill hanging tightly to the steel frame so tightly that the marking remained till few hours like it had been tattooed up in our palm and singing and dancing (partly) enjoying so much that we actually lost the thoughts of where we ended up at the end of the day and almost took a bus opposite to the way we should have!

With the empty glass in my hand

Silently on a wooden chair
raising a toast to me
memories, swing around
the soft warm air
It’s not hard anymore
not with a glass in my hand

every thing’s still the same
but the time is moving
forward back
and with pictures still in the wall
It’s hurt sometimes, but not now
not with a broken glass

I’m here thinking about
those days spent
and those that I am spending now
and the difference seem
to fade away with a glass in my hand

but the music seems to fade away
so does the remedy in the glass
the time seems to fade away
and slowly does the memories
With the empty glass in my hand

Waiting for a word

I see those blue eyes

staring down at me

as look for the answers

so close yet so far

a wait so long

with a silent

complexity of thoughts

expression, un-understandable

yet a bridge

lies there

observing all the way

finding the right component

every single day

but no a single help here comes

from the bystander

as the passer by

stares at the world

as he waits for a word

Melody

A shivering hand
pressed against machine
a empty mind
thoughtful
follows the light
as the raindrops
fell silently
against the shelter
of the eye
blurring the picture
with the neon light

And
in the middle of the road
lies a stone
perfectly camouflaged
yet so alone
rain drops dripping
down the top
bringing the
melody to a stop

School days

The elastic energy of my ears were increasing
When the teacher was pulling my ears
This was connected later to the earth
When I was doing up and down touching my ears

There was an expansion on my anger
And exponential decay of my knowledge
The faster diffusion of C6H12O6
And I was being pulled down by the gravity

His theory said he was trying to change
The electron that I am to proton that we all should be
But I knew I was an element that
Cannot be broken down by any chemicals

Knowledge is everything he said,
His knowledge was gigantic
You bloody fools you knowledge is in billion X micron's
Even electron microscope cannot see

I can't find the latent heat, to change your mind
I know that an object remains at rest or in uniform motion
Unless acted up on by external force
I can't change the damn object that you are
You are disgrace to the law

You'll learn on your way to ontogeny
The physiology of life
The world is a vast sea to live and
You are nothing but mere plankton
That day will come when you metamorphose
Into adult from puparium

He used to talk about some kind of symbiosis crap
And I used to press my phalanges against my pinna
You are nothing but a pathogenic micro organism
For which the antibiotics can never be found
You are a parasite and this world is a host

Your friends are like the rotten potato
That creates a chain reaction
We must pour some alcoholic KOH on you
Also perform dehydrohalogenation

Your brains were made chloroform by god
But you have turned them into phosgene
Your brain is fermented by sacchromyces
The fresh water that you were born is dying
As a pure distillation of C2H5OH

The qualitative and quantitative analysis
On you will result as a major disaster
You deoxyribose sugar must really code you to be a liar
Dear fool child your solubility product must be really higher

Sky

Filled with memories

rushing up to the heads

I dream of you and I

me staring at your beautiful eye

as majestic as a star filled night

oh so bright

and so vast as the limitless sky

The images are

distorted

may be its been a while

I've lost the count of you and I

yet the pain feels like

it was tomorrow

still the faint knocks

on the door

stand there a knocking sorrow

memories of life time

yet, regret for tomorrow

And, the feelings come

rushing up to the head

floating up so high

like lost, with any destination

the ever flying clouds in the sky

as the memories pass me by

Tough

As I lay thinking about

the smile on your face

the shinny picture on the self

so close to me, my heart

yet so far away

I wish for a word

I wish for a walk

yet so tough it is

even for me to talk

the boundaries and

the lines

there are to prevent me and you

and it makes it even tough

than it is already

Shine

Shine,

as the lights start to dim

and voices fading

with the time

to catch the dream

at another

end of the road

where the lights are

shinning

with hope

for today

the day must end

leave behind the sorrow

and shine

for there's always tomorrow

Einstein's Riddles

- In a street there are five houses, painted five different colors.

- In each house lives a person of different nationality.

- These five homeowners each drink a different kind of beverage, smoke different brand of cigar and keep a different pet.

Who owns the fish?

Necessary clues:

1. The British man lives in a red house.

2. The Swedish man keeps dogs as pets.

3. The Danish man drinks tea.

4. The Green house is next to, and on the left of the White house.

5. The owner of the Green house drinks coffee.

6. The person who smokes Pall Mall rears birds.

7. The owner of the Yellow house smokes Dunhill.

8. The man living in the center house drinks milk.

9. The Norwegian lives in the first house.

10. The man who smokes Blends lives next to the one who keeps cats.

11. The man who keeps horses lives next to the man who smokes Dunhill.

12. The man who smokes Blue Master drinks beer.

13. The German smokes Prince.

14. The Norwegian lives next to the blue house.

15. The Blends smoker lives next to the one who drinks water.

Microbiology Practical exam

As usual remember yourself standing outside the laboratory nervous as hell not because you think you’ll get low marks but freaked out because all you know about the subject that you are appearing in is the spelling of the subject and you’re appearing in it. You can imagine yourself to be the red faced guy with a book in hand who’s not exactly reading it! But is turning whatever page the other fellows are talking about. Then you think to yourself; god!! Exam sarye ni hunthyo!! “Sare ta sure padhtheye” all you get is a laugh from those nerds surrounding you who know everything but they don’t; and they strictly do not know anything…that is why the add a paper…15 min after the exam starts… then come the “Khadus miss haru” Timi haru le apron, marker, admit card layeko cha ki chiana? Apron layera admit card haat la liera line basne!! Question paper liney!! Ani start the exam and stop talking. At this point, I know you don’t want that to happen and yet you have to do it…you select one of the question paper and according to Newton’s third law of motion, as soon as you read the question and you throw out your reaction there’s a equal but opposite reaction and the question silently says “You’re fucked” with a smile…

Then you enter the lab!! Without a single idea of how are you going to do those things that are on the question paper?? There are something that you’ve never seen in you life before!! And just as you thought you could sneak in some cheats and books….the khadus teacher comes to you and takes away you cheat and at this moment its equal to you underwear!! Now you are figuratively naked…you take your seat!! Then you see a nerd sitting behind you and you ask him/her “timi lai aaucha” he says “kei aaudaina yar, thie pani hamro set nai alag alag cha” then you are fucked x 2 times… you start to curse your self for not opening the damn book for last 1 mths!! That you have and you curse your self for all those time wasting!!!! Chay pasal ma gareko hawa guff!! “aja ta ghar gaera sure padhchu ko guff” and everything you’ve done…at the time you cant do anything… then…you are compelled to talk with a “Girl” I repeat a girl!! That you have never talked to, in fact never seen in the college…and asks her!! “oe timi le 2 no. garyo!! And only if the luck wants you to get fucked more than x 3 will the girl say “no” but if 2 is your threshold!! Then!! Finally its your day!! And guess what!! You just attempted all the question and while you were keeping the test tubes proudly in the incubator…she’s still writing and you think to yourself???? What the hell is she writing? Just like I’m thinking now!! What the hell am I writing?

A smile

Miles and miles of

travelling to

not much of

a thing left to do

with a heart that's

half broken

in two

Years and Years of

waiting now

yet, it feels like

yesterday somehow

a fresh wound

wondering what happened

and how

hundreds and hundreds of

lie built trust

a million and

the heart lay alone to rust

yet a smile from her

blowing away,

the shattered hearts dust

All about You

I know that you don't remember it at all

It is a special day for me, I thought I'd call

but I hate the way you treat me now

can't believe we had those memories, some how

It was few hours before, the sun's departure

and, not so much sure about our

Such a beautiful day it was

lights, music, candles and flowers

then I took you hand, on the

religious shrine

As I looked into your eyes, as the memory flow

I asked you if you'd want to be mine

and you said NO

Then I don't remember much

not much to be told

you flew half way across the world

And you do know, even then so hard I try

right until you found Mr. Perfect Guy

the times now passes like the falling sand

I thought you Changed

I thought you changed

and I rearranged

but then I took a look around

you're still them same

then I had bring this to end

my old friend

I erased us in

as long as the world sees

but never can I delete the

memories

And

They came back

when I thought you changed

and I rearranged

but then I took a look around

you're still them same

I thought you realized

what you meant to me

what it would mean

if we were to be

It would have been good

if we were

but I now know for sure

you really don't care

I thought you Changed

I thought you changed

and I rearranged

but then I took a look around

you're still them same

then I had bring this to end

my old friend

I erased us in

as long as the world sees

but never can I delete the

memories

And

They came back

when I thought you changed

and I rearranged

but then I took a look around

you're still them same

I thought you realized

what you meant to me

what its would mean

if we were to be

It would have been good

if we were

but I now know for sure

you really don't care

The Guardian Angel

Even when the world

even my shadows left me

behind,

to wander away in the brightness

to bright for me to see

I was left in the darkness

and she stood behind me

like a teacher standing beside

the student with lost ambition

I was lost, ambitions , dreams and heart

shattered into pieces

she brought them together

she showed me the light

the way out through the door

even when i was left strangling

out in the wild,

she stood beside me

filling me with hopes

and,

I find a little glimpse of

smile within myself

with the guardian angel beside my side

म

म त्यो अक्षर हुँ

जुन आज फिक्का भै सकेको छ

किरा ले खाइ सकेको पुरानो दराजमा

धुलो र ढुसीले कवज बनेको

तेही पुरानो पुस्तकको म काहानी हुँ

म त्यो स्वोर हुँ

जुन आज फिक्का भै सकेको छ

सन्दुक भित्र मुसाले टोकेर

तार हरु धुजा धुजा पारेको

तेही रेडियोको आवज हुँ म

म त्यो मान्छे हुँ

जुन आज दिक्क भै सकेको छ

दुनियाँले खाइ सकेको

सताइ सकेको

रुवाइ सकेको

तेही एउटा बाउला हुँ म !

Hollow

Wandering inside the

emptiness of myself

numb inside out

I can't feel the air

or anything

all I can feel is hollowness

inside of me

echoing the sounds

of memories, pain

I feel lost,

I feel left alone

not even with a shadow

of my own to follow

I feel, sad, depleted and hollow

Happy Birthday

We were on the road
the road that ended somewhere
something flew right into my eyes
I closed my eyes for a while
but then you were gone
we could have made it
to the end where our dreams
were waiting for us,
but then they were shattered into pieces
somehow you changed,
those pieces were not small enough for you
then you broke them into even smaller pieces
and still all those broken pieces
if it were to be re arranged would
have your name on it
we had our share of fun, laughter
and great memories, that will
walk with me to my deathbed
but now its too late to be reminded it
everyday,
your face with a stranger
everyday on the electronic screen
I'm still the same way you left me some
four years ago,
and you're not the same person that you were
things have changed,
they've been rearranged
nothing looks familiar anymore
specially you
but I still cannot forget those times
and even though I hate you for what you did
how could I forget this day
even if those memories in your head
lay there alone to rust
Happy Birthday to you, old friend
and Happy birthday to us!

A false heart

silent

the sound of

a shattered heart

years and years

memories

hundreds of miles apart

faint

the color of

the imagination

building up to

a false heart's fabrication

vague

the look on her face

loneliness

creeps on to life

its a sad friends embrace

Memories

Silent,

like a soft warm breeze

slowed up

after a strong storm

wondering off in

consequences of

the rampage

that has been done

replacing

broken, bruised

lost and left overs

with sands,

as the sands of time

passes by,

with memories

left

hanging up in the

wall

in a dusty wooden frame

2011/2012 Manchester United Squad Photo

Silence

there's a sound creeping

outside the metal door

levitating through

the vacuum of silence

a disturb mind

write's with a trembling hand

and as the story

calls its end

certain instability

it sends

there's a sound another one

may be someone's walking now

may there's a cat running down

for all the shattered glass and

all the fierce argument

a mind of black, empty and mad

needs a silent treatment

Pause

walk,

as lights go dim

a mind falls to pieces

behind the scene

leaving the

prints of

things undone

racing towards the

end of the road

where the silence

has been shattered by

the dreams of

those who walked

millions miles on a bare foot

time accelerates

so does the thoughts

in your head

but, half way through

the end of the road

you remember what

the wise man said,

walk, walk until you can

but not when

upon the canvas the

rain drop draws

a moment you shall compromise

think twice and pause

Never write Manchester United off

Never write Manchester United Off

The trembling voice of the commentator on the last few minutes of the Champions league final 99 always echoes in my head, Can Manchester United Score? They always Score. And We always do Score. 2-0 3-0 Doesn't matter, Football is the game played to till the Final whistle goes off. Even before the game started the game was never meant to be a friendly match, one of the most fierce derby and a curtain raiser. Manchester United, the defending Champions were eager to start the new season on high, to win the unprecedented 20 league title. There would not have been better match than Manchester United Vs Manchester City to start the season with community shield.

Wembley stadium hosted the 2011/12 curtain raiser, New looked Manchester United took command of the game from the start. But it was Man City who took the lead against the run of play from a 38th minute Joleon lescott Header. Even though United were in control of the game Man City were 2-0 from a Dzeko's goal at the end of the first half.

Ferguson made three changes in the second half Phil Jones, Tom Cleverly and Johnny Evans replaced Ferdinand and Michael Carrick and Nemanja Vidic , and the changed paid off. Chris Smalling grabbed a goal back for United on the 52nd minute from a Ashley Young set piece. Six minutes later United were leveled as Nani scored for United, who finished a brilliant move with a clinical finish. The match was almost going into Penalties, before Wayne Rooney crossed into Nani who passed Vincent Kompany and one on one with Hart and finished brilliantly and calmly on the Injury time. Manchester United Pulled off a late minute winner against Man City to win 19th Community shield. And, a brilliant comeback. Though City took the early lead, Manchester United were in command of the game form the start.

Like always, Can Manchester United Score? They always Score!! Football is a game of 90, plus the added time. And, it takes more than just money to win the league and be the best team of England and of the world. Manchester United showed their never giving up attitude in the game yesterday and this is what Champions are made up off, 2-0 down on the 1st 45 minutes and 3-2 up on the next. It's a big pressure to play in such big matches and to be the best you need to be able to handle the pressure, and Man City couldn't handle the pressure, and United will fight till the end, not just yesterday, we have seen them come back to win from goal down situation hundreds of time and we will see more of the. Even with the departure of veteran players like Van De sar and Scholes, the team showed their will to win the game, their Champions attitude and they proved that this team will be the best team in the years to come, David de Gea, Tom Cleverly and Ashley Young had good game and they will improve in years to come and this team will get better and better as the seasons goes on, to win the unprecedented 20th league title.

And, Never write Manchester United off...

A dream

A sunny morning or

day time it is

not so clear on the electronic screen

I sit a doze and I dream

and in the dream

As I close my eyes

I see the multicolored hair

shinning besides me

and shadows lie beside me

I care not much about him

I think,

but the scene is almost killing me

I try to open my eyes

but cannot find a way

everything turns dark

night consumes the day

it gets hard to breathe

to see whats going in front of me

the heart feels heavy and

the head feels down

regrets come to life

feelings turn around

cursing away the fate

love turns to hate

Never understood

on a old wooden frame

sits a dusty photograph

with a scent of

the gift that you left me back

somewhere a wooden elephant

sits on a table

forgotten and somewhere

a key hangs to the

feelings, memories

of a days spent together

and somewhere

the days still haunts a

shattered soul

and somewhere

the clouds of happiness

are dancing up

as those memories are forgotten

never cared for,

never understood

Never understood

on a old wooden frame

sits a dusty photograph

with a scent of

the gift that you left me back

somewhere a wooden elephant

sits on a table

forgotten and somewhere

a key hangs to the

feelings, memories

of a days spent together

and somewhere

the days still haunts a

shattered soul

and somewhere

the clouds of happiness

are dancing up

as those memories are forgotten

never cared for,

never understood

Never understood

on a old wooden frame

sits a dusty photograph

with a scent of

the gift that you left me back

somewhere a wooden elephant

sits on a table

forgotten and somewhere

a key hangs to the

feelings, memories

of a days spent together

and somewhere

the days still haunts a

shattered soul

and somewhere

the clouds of happiness

are dancing up

as those memories are forgotten

never cared for,

never understood

Endless road

Well, it started off with doubts and of course the same type of negative energies but I don't know something inside me said, Ok... lets see this might go somewhere. But no one knows me better that I do and I know where was I going with this. A certain help from a friend of mine was like a dim lights on a dark scary road, which at least could direct me the way I was heading to. But the end of the road was always uncertain, But I had no options I had to take that road not matter where it ended, who would known that the road once you've set your foot on never ends and all you get is just endless supplies of darkness and uncertainty of infinite boundaries of shattered dreams and expectations. Not long before your legs start to weary off and you start to think it through, look back and all you see is that you are half way through the never ending road and now you can't just go back and you are too tired to go ahead, to the place, that you are not so sure about its existence. But, something inside you says, never let go, never accept defeat, no one can defeat you! Still you know the answer that you are walking on a road with broken lights and sideways filled with the people with broken dreams or even legs or heart, and there you go! you join one of them. And when you are running away from the reality of life, of truth towards the end of the road where you assume lies your dream, time is running in the opposite direction to you, you can it silently fading away in darkness and now you are left with nothing, strangled in the middle of the road, with no where to go, no one there to consult you, no one shows sympathy and time shows no mercy and no matter how hard you try to make you believe that you never lose a game, a moment of silent and adding a certain darkness to your eyes with that frame of time makes you realize where you stand and then there's nothing you can do about it but write it on a thin piece of torn out paper with a pen and someday the letters fade away, just like the time that faded away when you were running against it.

Walk in my shoes

It's not a curse but

a simple thing that I want

not that I wish for you to get hurt

just for a way that you will know

and never again will you

try to kill a fire with a flame

never again,

with anyone's feelings

will you play a game

no it's not a curse

that I wish for your tears

just for a way that you will know

for wasting all my years

just for those things that you always do

just to make you walk in my shoe

A word please !!

I try to write with an empty mind

the more I try the more hard to find

its such a hard thing to do

when your minds not right

even harder more on

such cold lazy night

I try to write about anything

but I can't figure it out with ease

would mind help me write something

with a word please?

A lizard

I was basking in the sun one day
on a wooden chair in the park
out of no where I saw this
lizard up on the tree's bark
it look so beautiful
I loved the way it look
But it changed it color
when I closed my eyes
a moment that I took
it was so fast and so unannounced
that I couldn't understand
it was such a magic art
but the lizard jumped upon me
tearing away my heart

Goodbye

You're not even gone yet
and I already miss you so
the hard that I thought it was
harder it is to let you go
i think of the times we spent
and now they are all about to go
but i won't let it fade away
I promise,
stronger it will grow
emptiness conquers my
nostalgic mind
as i try to pen it down
but the moments that we spent
together are so precious
and so umpteen for me to express
and every single moment that i spent with you
it meant a world to me
and I'll cherish that all my life
and ill miss you so much
my love my friend
a warm goodbye
until we meet again

A shelter

a shelter below the dark
clouds of shattered hopes
and dreams
a naive heart
drowned in unimaginable
unattainable
imaginations
victimized by the
beauty of treacherous mind
opening a tattered heart
submerged in tears

A new beginning

Leave behind what you can
for if it brings no good to you
take a bold step ahead and
for a better time to come
it may burn you down
to turn it around
but
what else can you do
erase all the darkness
in your head
and replace it with blue
for there's always a new start
right before when its to late
and if you wait for more and more
a day will come when your heart will break
if you cannot see the next day
don't waste you time to make
think of it while you , best can
and choice you have to make
and its never to late to make
a new beginning

Trust

Two sides of shore
found a connection within
a disaster in its way
inevitably seen
one pretending
one trying hard not to

but never shall one trust
the patient that flows
stronger as the feelings
strong the ego grows

a mistake not thought of
yet comes to haunt it down
a water body not seen dangerous enough
sweeps away a town

feelings, trust and time all rust in vain
never ever shall I trust you again

Treacherous smile

A shine of trust that I saw in you

sparkling in your eyes

turned out to be treacherous

the beauty in your eyes

turned out to be dangerous

your voice,

the one I fell in love with

ripped through my heart

like a long cold sword

yet the smile of yours

stayed like you always

played when you were around

I was such a fool not to see

I was as madly in love as I could be

and,

I mistook you for one

who enjoys love rather than

hurting the one who loves you

at least I thought it for a while

as I was madly deceived by your

Treacherous smile

In her eyes

I was lost in the moment

lost within her eyes

shinning like a star

staring at me

trying to say something

yet, I cannot understand

may be something

which was never meant for me

to understand

its seems so vast

so powerful

its stop everything

I feel heavy inside

I miss her more

I want her more

I can't take my eyes of her

even I'm forbid to

I'm lost in the beauty and the

expression in her eyes

it reminds me of every single moment

I spend with her

I find it rolling across her

dark grey eyes

strong feelings

very strong

in her eyes

He stood there

an empty cup

beside the table lamp

sings the tune of

sorrow into the

boredom of the

silent room

something cries

but nothing moves

no words

like there was no

word of care

and yet

he stood there alone in the

dark room

staring at the wall

with a picture in a frame

and a wall filled with her name

he stood there

and years and years they passed

but no one picked that door

until his feelings dropped down

on the floor

and he waited there for eternity

You

you are in my eyes, you are in my mind

you are all over the air that i breathe

you are in my blood stream

and in my heart beat

you are the thoughts that I

take my time to think

I miss you every time i close my eyes

even when i blink

you the sweetest person i know

and I really mean

you are the most beautiful girl i

have ever seen

Let me be

let me be with you till the memories go hazy

let me hold you in my arms till the world goes crazy

let me be the light if you ever run into the dark

let me be the fireworks let me be the spark

let me be the eye for you, and lead your way

let me be your morning let me be your day

let me be the one to wipe your tears

let me be your seconds let me be your years

Wait

it feels like its been a year or two

that you have crossed my mind

I was lost in you beautiful eyes

and you were gone then, now I can't find

I still think about you almost everyday

miss you like the flowers missing the sun

I wish I could see you now, there's so much I have to say

Life was so much fun then, but now its all gone

Well, you came like a hurricane and blew my mind away

May be it was a destiny that for us to meet

and may be we will, if its written in our fate

All I can do now is cross the days on calendar everyday and wait

I Wish

as the dark clouds

tear apart disclosing the moon

I make a wish , at the night sky

I wish to see you soon

I think of the times that we spent

and try hard not to miss you

I can't wait to be with you

hold you in my arms, and kiss you

I wish this night would end

and come tomorrow I'll be by your side

I'll tell the world that I love you so

My feelings I can't hide

I wish everything would move fast

and then I would be with you very soon

we'd talk, laugh and dance

beneath that very moon

Do anything you want to do

Well, stab in my heart

burn me down

there's nothing you can do

to hurt me now

well, I'm dead inside

to burn me down

there's nothing you can do

to kill me now

So,

leave me now,

stab me too

well do anything that you want to do

May be

It's so hard

but you'd not understand it

not understand it at all

how hard i took a fall

when i saw your pretty face

i was lost inside the place

of your beautiful eyes

and lost in your sweetest of voice

and

i know you

you'd not understand

not understand it at all

how hard i took a fall

only if i could fly and crash land

in your arms

only if i could write your name

all over the moon

and only if i could

tear my heart open and gift it to you

may be you'll understand then

End of the road

the lights are dim

eye's are closing

up against the race with time

the roads are empty

hopes are fading with

every seconds of

departing light

time is running out

emptiness surrounds

a certain fear arise from

distance

and the road never seems to end

the sound of darkness is calling now

and hopes are certainly falling now

a mystery then,

mystery it remains

at the end of the road

Saddened thoughts

saddened thoughts devours

my mind

creeping into the darkness of life

fears of imagination

torture of own thoughts

image of

immature feelings

of pain or pleasure

a sinner with a aim

a player in a game

dead feelings without pain

smoke of emotions in vain

saddened thoughts creeping into

the darkness of life

Goodbye

it's been a long journey

now

and I think I need a break

well,

from your life and mine

a moment in time

I need to take

I need to free my mind

from all this things

that have come and gone

and take it down with

a heart of stone

I can or not

it's up to me to judge

for today, and tomorrow

I'll just find a way to try for now

for the time to come

not,forever,

just goodbye for now

A reason

I don't want to be the reason for your tears,

I don't want to be the reason for your absence,

don't want to a reason for anything at all

it came as surprise to me

but only if I know

it's too much less

for what I wanted

from you

I wanted the smile that I saw

and the part of you that I liked

but,

there's something that I've done

and it's all gone

and I don't want to be the reason for your tears

I don't want to be the reason for your absence,

don't want to a reason for anything at all

A scar

emptiness

surrounds, as I look

into the unforgettable

past, and never ending

flow of memories

times of laughter and

fun,

but nothing feels the same

promises gone in vain

lost thoughts scribbled back

to life in words

that fill up the empty

paper of pain,

with a face with tears stained eyes

and a heart with scars that never heal

a scar, a gift

Boredom

hunger lurks for

a free mind

compelling

to change the thoughts

in the darkened and rusty mind

for the imaginary joy

for the changing time

a silent art

with a magical flow

in the darkness with

a divine, enlightening glow

a open mind,

a waiting one

the empty surroundings

not a reason found

with in the boredom

a silent sound

A Place

there's a place

somewhere in my thoughts

randomly

checking upon the

images of

broken lines of

stones,

glasses shattered into the

tears of the living dead

consuming the

mind of

those

who tend to have unexpectedness

upon your views

thoughts

but,

there's always a place

to take out some time

and rethink of what has been told

written down in the piece of paper

that has been shattered with the

spider webbed eyes,

always a time to clear the disguise

A part of me

There's a part in my head

where I have a dream

and it's locked up in a tiny little boxes

of hopes and imagination

There's a part in my life

where I have a place

and it's locked up in empty boxes

of thoughts and feelings

There's a view in my head

where I see the world

through the open eyes beside the empty boxes

of hopes and imagination

Will

Wisdom

a state of mind

transformation

into the reality

from the disguised

sense of ability

Appreciation

seek seldom

get always

let the work of art flow

with in you like

the warm breeze by the shore

Reason

a reason

to smile

to love

to heal

to feel

to cure

to share

to understand

Devotion

just to you

So far away

to believe that

you'll never just be that far away

and remain in my heart

but ,

you're not even gone now

and i already miss you

a crazy thought for now

but,

will be so hard to let you go

yet i feel like you're so far away already

and the clouds of feelings are hovering across

my mind

ready to come down, to the reality

for the rest of the time

that we have

and its not at all going to be easier to live with

and i miss you already!!

Words

the silence is broken now

the words has been shattered

but an awkward moment hangs

into the darkness of imagination

of where and how is it going to be

wondering

finding words

rusty eyes

creeping mind

for answers

for a memory of a life time

to a commitment

that can't be undone

but

what words do i speak

what words do i seek

its the hunger for the word

in the world full of hungry words

Pink Floyd

One of these days
Under the pillows of winds
Fearlessly I will listen to the echoes
Of the sound of obscured clouds
When you’re in burning bridges
The gold its absolutely behind the curtains
So stay until the childhoods end
What’s the deal, mudmen?
Speak to me!
Breathe
Why on the run?
Is the time running out?
For the great gig in the sky?
Under the eclipse
Any colour you like!
Until your brain is damaged they will play
Money-The greatest hit!

So shine on you crazy diamond!
Wish you were here!
But welcome anytime you like!
And have a cigar!
I’ll show you my pig!
The three different one’s
And the sheep’s and the dogs
Finally my favourite the pigs on the wing

In the flesh
Upon the thin ice
We will spend the happiest days of our life
Hey you!
Don’t leave me now
Oh good bye cruel world!
Is there anybody out there?
Or is nobody home?
Bring back the boys home
The show must go on
Vera lynn
Stop out side the wall
Waiting for the worms
And the run like hell
Until you see your possible past
And one of the few post war dream
The gunners dream
The heroes return
The final cut
In the Fletcher memorial home
On Southampton dock
When there’s to suns in the sun set

Where you will see
New signs of life
On the turning away

Keep talking
Why are you lost for words
I have I high hopes!
I’m coming back to life
And take it back
The great day of freedom!

You and I

with a beating heart i saw your face

and silent smile that you embrace

time i took to let you know

finally before i tried

long before you even knew

i found a place to hide

lost the hope i had

but until i saw you face

a gentle breeze brought

warmness around that place

i had no idea how to start

but i thought when it would end

but i was glad enough to

find out the request that you had send

it took me a day to the least

to start to write a thing

times and times of thinking

and plenty of mood swing

but at last i did find a way to write

left for my hand to that, and heart to recite

not so long before the talk

and started getting to know you well

day and night i was struck

with hands on my cell

i thought that it would never end

the talk with you and me

miles and miles of open ocean

but, right here i could see

all those times of talks and fun

those are the times i cherish

if we were to get far enough

that's something i would miss

the more i talked, the more i knew

the more i discovered the beauty in you

Slowly, yet noticeably you came into my life

floating around my head, every day and night

so sweet and so nice you were

that i could not take my eyes

and everyday and every night

you danced above my skies

its blue , it was new and something i didn't know

in my dreams, in my life, with that sweet glow

a week or more is what it took for me know you well

though i took a longer time, than for you to tell

and you said i was dumb and slow, you had to say it all

special were you to me as such, for i had to stall

but, then there came those times, we both had waited for so long

and the bond between us, everyday it grew strong

smiles were all over, i guess on the both sides

those feeling were as strong to bring shore the tides

floods of feeling flooded through my crazy mind

brining forth the beauty, making me blind

it was those times when i forgot everything about the world

for a moment it felt like whole world were at pause

shattering all those natures and all physical laws

shared a lot, talked a lot, in front of electronic screen

well long enough for you to sleep, almost turning green

no matter how hard it was, you did find the time

sorry for that green thing, I couldn't find anything to rhyme

and then the time almost came for us to meet once in for all

it was then that, to surprise you i gave you a call

though i was too afraid to talk too much i did hear your voice

it was only later that i knew it was not a bad choice

then you were almost on the flight, well away from touch

and before you got there, we hadn't talked so much

two days you took reply to me, in thoughts i was lost

it felt like a different things almost as a thirst

and then I had to leave for a week or two

before we could even meet

but then i got you're call when i was

riding down the bus on long scary street

it was good to hear your voice and

it was a promise that you made

as soon as i will land down her

i'll call you is what you said

and so did you and i thanked you for

if i remember well, you called me joker

then there were text all night and all day long

even when i was sleeping or listing to a song

then there were those place with no network next

but id knew if i got the network, from the sound of your text

i was getting so addicted each and everyday

to your text and your voice and everything you say

then came the time i said something that

changed the way we talk

a certain cloud of doubts

formed around us and made a block

but then you said, its not because of that

it took me to believe it , few hours of chat

finally when we had shared it all

then came the time to meet

and when i saw you walking down that road

i lost my word to greet

and i forgot to tell you then how

beautiful you looked

and then you weren't hungry at

all, that you ate nothing that was cooked

you stayed quite and looked me in the eyes

i was talking to you with my eyes in the skies

look into my eyes when you talk, is what said

that is what i never did, i was so afraid

you were so cool and nice and as sweet as one can be

beautiful from heart and for the world to see

i really don't know of what you thought of me

and then we got close, close and close

day and night, night and day we were in touch

and i really really liked you so much :)

and now it just upon the time

where are we heading, you and I :)

You

Lost in the world where

you've have the most beautiful eyes

lets not talk about the voice

for i shall be paused in this moment of time

words they come out right

yet the feelings inside grows

acting, weird am i now

and the whole world knows

i tried not to hold back

when i thought i was falling for you

that has been one of the best

thing that i ever had to do!

Words Of wisdom

Words of wisdom

I find it to be false

nothing is as it seems

people change

hearts change

mind change

and this ever changing

cycle of changes

bring laughter, fun, tears

shattered memories into the

rusty frames of photograph

hanging on corner of

a dark room

with fading recollection

of what was merely you

but

with cruelty of time

what has now been forsaken

forgotten

words of wisdom they remain

hanging in that same corner

and a foolish mind runs you like

a donkey on a loose

Everyday

everyday like yesterday

i got a silent smile on my face

im swinging to you beautiful voices

and dancing from inside

the beauty that the sky

like yesterday

grown even prettier everyday

and

everyday like yesterday

i got a silent smile on my face

I see you

you talk to me

and they you make my day

everyday like yesterday

you bring happiness like the

ever blazing sun brining light down

to earth

the warmness that you bring in me

is awesome than the hearth

and everydau like yesterday

i like you more and more!

Her Beautiful Eyes

those beautiful eyes
speaking silently with me
call me
and as i float around with clouds
as she smiles and everything stops
like the world has now stopped
to look at her
she calls me and everything is back in motion
slowly though
time moves like it has forgotten its direction
I move like I've forgotten everything
the more she talks
more and more I fall down
but she's there to pick me up
and I get more and more lost in her
beautiful eyes,
and there she is to guide me