टि यू को रिजल्ट

बल्ल बल्ल दुई चार अछेर लेखेको थिए चालिस त तेही नि छुदैन नि

बच्चा जन्मिने समय भाई सक्यो हजुर रिसल्ट त अझै हुँदैन नि

अर्को बर्ष को फोर्म भरी सके, गाईड किनी तयार भइ

प्रथम बर्षको पिडा सम्जी दिमागल केही छुदैन नि

बच्चा जन्मिने समय भाई सक्यो हजुर रिसल्ट त अझै हुँदैन नि

जाच देको कहिले बिर्सिन लाये, कुन बर्ष हो म बिर्सेंए सक्ये

जिन्दगी को सवाल छ, प्रशासन त पछी रुदै न नि

बच्चा जन्मिने समय भाई सक्यो हजुर रिसल्ट त अझै हुँदैन नि

कती होउ कती समय आझै पर्खनु फैल हुने रिसल्ट लाई

सर्फ एक्सेल ले त मार्कशिट को तारा धुदै न नि

बच्चा जन्मिने समय भाई सक्यो हजुर रिसल्ट त अझै हुँदैन नि

As I walk alone

Well, even before the silence of my words was broken, the voices have been deceased inside of me. A unbreakable truth it was, but yet not hard to try, like in stairway to heaven, I wanted to be sure if the store is closed or not…and I can see the neon lights from where I stand and it seems like the store is closed and there is no sing on the wall, and there are of course no two meanings for me. Before the clouds could gather and the rain drops fell, before I searched for an umbrella or shelter, before I got wet, I’m am about to break the silence and walk away from this road and take the next turn for the lost city that I’ll probably never find. With hopes I walk alone, with images, with memories, with a name in painted with black ink in the dark red color of the beat box. May be I’ll find the music for my lyrics and the glass to hold all those tears that I’ve cried. Thousand’s of sun and moon will pass me by, while I lay inside the loop whole of my mistakes and the loneliness. It was anther chance, a new day! A new door and a new key to start a new day, but as always I was the wrong man at the wrong place, trying to figure out, when it was already a sun or two late. But at least, I’ve got few things in my head, and someone inside guiding me and telling me every second, there’s always a hope left no matter what…I’ve gathered some hope as I walk alone the next turn of this road.

I am an Idiot

I was an idiot then, because I was wrong, a big liar I was, I was possessive, I was selfish, and I didn’t care what happened to you! I never wanted to be a responsible person; I totally didn’t care at all. I was there watching you, everything that you do. Those memories, under the sun and of course the full moon, I tried my best!! And you can’t deny that fact, but something was never enough for you! And that something I never understood, although I wanted to do that something, the last thing, I never knew where to start, there was a key in my hand but there were no doors around. I could never enter inside like I could never enter inside your heart. All those failed attempts; they were not the least that you wanted and more that I couldn’t do for you, at least for me it seemed that I walked the length of the earth for you, but no!! I didn’t, you proved it now, after hundreds of full moons and thousands of rainy nights, it took you long time to shatter the cold wet glass that was soaked from the tears that I cried all those rainy nights!

I am an Idiot

I was an idiot then, because I was wrong, a big liar I was, I was possessive, I was selfish, and I didn’t care what happened to you! I never wanted to be a responsible person; I totally didn’t care at all. I was there watching you, everything that you do. Those memories, under the sun and of course the full moon, I tried my best!! And you can’t deny that fact, but something was never enough for you! And that something I never understood, although I wanted to do that something, the last thing, I never knew where to start, there was a key in my hand but there were no doors around. I could never enter inside like I could never enter inside your heart. All those failed attempts; they were not the least that you wanted and more that I couldn’t do for you, at least for me it seemed that I walked the length of the earth for you, but no!! I didn’t, you proved it now, after hundreds of full moons and thousands of rainy nights, it took you long time to shatter the cold wet glass that was soaked from the tears that I cried all those rainy nights!

I am an Idiot

I was an idiot then, because I was wrong, a big liar I was, I was possessive, I was selfish, and I didn’t care what happened to you! I never wanted to be a responsible person; I totally didn’t care at all. I was there watching you, everything that you do. Those memories, under the sun and of course the full moon, I tried my best!! And you can’t deny that fact, but something was never enough for you! And that something I never understood, although I wanted to do that something, the last thing, I never knew where to start, there was a key in my hand but there were no doors around. I could never enter inside like I could never enter inside your heart. All those failed attempts; they were not the least that you wanted and more that I couldn’t do for you, at least for me it seemed that I walked the length of the earth for you, but no!! I didn’t, you proved it now, after hundreds of full moons and thousands of rainy nights, it took you long time to shatter the cold wet glass that was soaked from the tears that I cried all those rainy nights!

Trust

The path I choose on my individual awareness, full consciousness of my brain and the full self realization of the consequences made me realize the truth of the ground reality that I assumed to have had in the past, though something inside me made me chose that very path, which of course I should never have preferred to, while knowing what to expect from the opposite force. I put my mind, feelings, thoughts and most of all my trust unto the silent pouring rain into the shinny sands!
I walked across the perfectly laid stone, each dividing, a line, just like between us dividing them. A channel of rains drops gathering and marching into the deeps just like the river of tears that I shed for her. Everyday, every night I poured my tears into the chalice of love I thought she gave me, but when I closed my heart to miss her even when she was there in front of me, she left some sands as a symbol of her love for me, and silently with my voice, my tears of love for here were sucked up by the sand of her hate for me. Darkness roofed the radiance of my eyes everyday like a ghost inhaling my existence from the world of those intelligent human that she had her trust stamped on…but with no regrets I walk alone…

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