17th July 2009

So much for the dream Ive been having lately. I wonder how am I able to dream, when I cant just do anything? Think and Dream arent those the same? but why cant I think and I dream all the time? fair enough for the time Im asleep but what about the time when Im not? It has been a day or two that I havent done my routine, I dont know if its my heart burning or the Global Warming but something is burning for sure, somewhere inside my heart. I cant i just can think, sleep or anything at all.The dark clouds above me never seem to leave, I was mistaken all time long I was comparing those to you, but do you know what is the difference between the dark clouds and you? Even though I loved you, you left me to make my life dark, but even when I hate this clouds so much its never leaving and yet making my life a dark place for me to silently crush away my heart.I dont really understand your reason anytime, even though I say I do.Atleast that brings smile on your face and you closer to me. I just cant lie to be with you and the truth Im telling is not helping me at all to be with you. I was as mad about you as A dog is about bone but with those recent facts Im sorry dear. I just cant, I cant even think to trust you. Do you even realize that youve changed so much? I hear things and I guess that are supposed to be normal but those things I hear arent. I guess Rose is what its thorns are, Moon is all about its eclipse is, Warm is never warm if there is nothing called cold. You are never Beautiful as you are If im not There To be the Ugliest part of your beauty. Let my tears shine you in my eyes, it would not matter much to me, till you are smiling. Everything I speak are lie for you even the word "Truth" coming out of my mouth is translated into "Lie" by a certain factor, as it seems to me. Im so dead right about it but I just can find the loop hole to erase that fact for ever. A stone might not be as worth as a diamond, I do understand that. But is it up to us to judge the facts? What if centuries ago, Our anchestor had made stone as worthy as a diamond and a diamond as unworthy we think stone is. All Im trying to say is, Nothing is as it seems it is, Life is just a game, which we cant sort of, it might end today tomorrow, its uncertain and nothing we own is ours. I know this will be a worthless crap for you, But every single thing youve said? Ive just replied, you like it or not!

The darkest hour of the world

The darkest hour of the world has begun
The time has come that the living shall mourn
Those intimidator humans shall learn about grave
They shall be shown soul less are brave

Hate, cruelty shall be spread all over the world
The graves of the dead shall be unfold
For years they have hated us, they have lied
Those narrow walls shall be broken, they shall be crucified

Please

Of your charm is how live with
Without you my dear I’m just a myth
Thy eyes reminds me of the moon in the sky at night
On dark cold day it renders me light
I’m blind without you, you’re my sight
You like my sun on clear blue skies
I see the world through your eyes
This heart stops breathing when you are not here
This eye starts crying, so hard to hold his tear
My mind stop screams your name with fear
When you not around my lips stop to talk
Without you in my sight my legs stop to walk
When I hold your picture my brain stops to think
These poor eyes love you so much they disregard to blink
If you’ll leave my love this boat will simply sink
This same boat that wished to hold you forever
The heart of boat now is full of fear
Please don’t leave me my dear
I can’t cry more I’m broke with tears
I’m so lost so full of fears
Please

My blameless heart

Long had it been since last you I had dreamed
Life’s even worse more than it had seemed
Can’t stop loving you even we’re so apart
You might be happy but I’m living with a shattered heart
It was hard Oh it’s getting even worse
Even all I do is cry, I have no remorse
Loved with all my essence in my soul I had
The world thinks I’m crazy. Oh he really is mad
But my dear my love for you shall never die
Can’t be even swept by flood made by tears when I cry
The world might end but I’ll still be loving you, oh yes I will
My love is like air but you couldn’t feel
Oh it was everywhere around you
And will be till I die from the day I found you
Though my precious love was never returned
My blameless heart was harmed and burned

Where is purity?

They say we find it everywhere
But years have gone I haven’t seen it yet
I should have seen it even if it’s rare
Thousand of sight in front, the thing I haven’t met

They say it’s on top of mountain when it comes to height
They say it’s as big as a biggest of city
The thing so called “Everywhere” but so hard to find
Oh my lord tell me where in earth is purity?

She broke god’s heart

From that sky above, she came
Beautiful lady with a beautiful name
Why would the God send such a girl to this earth?
Such a wrong place for an angel’s birth
I wondered for years oh why, why did he?
Send such a beautiful girl in front of me
If I was him I would never leave her sight
Even on coldest and darkest of night
How could he be away from her this long?
How could he never felt he was wrong?
How could the creator himself do this?
To leave so far away from what brings in him bliss
I wondered so long that how with a girl so fine he could be part
It’s now I found, same as mine she broke his heart

My dear love I’m missing you a lot

As of loving you in life I’ve lost hope
Love has made me crazy, I’ve become a misanthrope
Ecstasy in life so hard to find
Pen’s running on the paper, you’re on my mind
It’s been a year or so
No one I meet, there’s no where I go
My eyes are like cloud, they always speak with rain
My heart is like thunder, always speaking in pain
I spend my times in darkness, I’m afraid of light
My soul dies in day, reborn at night
I walk alone with you in my head
Only your thoughts even without my own shade
My own shadow left me never to come again
Tears are my water, my food is pain
That’s what I’m living with since you’re gone
Life’s full of darkness no sign of fun
Pain, sorrow tears that what I’ve got
My dear love I’m missing you a lot